Sunday, November 16, 2008

The Good News & the Bad News



So it turns out Mum doesn't have cancer!!! She re-took all the tests and second and third opinions, and it turns out that that $%&**&^%$%^&*% at Amiri hospital (sorry DR) was living in her own cancer ridden world when she imagined a cancer-lump that did not even exsist. Making us go though living HELL all for nothing.

Thank you, thank you, thank you GOD for making things turn out ok!! and Thanks to all of you who sent prayers our way, you cannot imagine how much it meant to me and I can't thank you enough!

It really is at times like this when you find out who your true friends are, there are those who called or smsed practically everyday, checking up on me and trying to cheer me up even when I wasn't in the mood to talk, and those who practically lost my phone number, completely avoiding me, when we used to talk nearly everyday. Like I was some kind of plague to be avoided. No longer the fun Miya, why would we wanna be around that?
Then there were those who just expected me to act like nothing is wrong. Ok so your mum has cancer, I'm sorry, now lets go have fun?! HUH!?

It really was one of the loneliest times ever for me. It took every bit of strength I have and huge fear of the hurt of rejection for me not to contact 'him'. All I wanted was to curl up in someone's arms and ball my eyes out. It sucks that I didn't have that, from anyone, hell even my family members didn't even bother to call and check up on the only person actually living with my mum. It sucks that I had to drive around alone, parking in random spots, sitting on the beach praying mum will be ok and crying my eyes out with no1 to even hand me a kleenex. The odd stranger giving me weird looks, but I had no choice, I certainly couldn't cry at home where mum would see me.
Weirder still, that with so so many friends, I had no other option but to cry alone at the beach.

Mum still has to do surgery, but it should be simple and no big deal. Again thank you to everyone who prayed for her and left messages. Reading them really gave me hope.



*Thank you

15 comments:

teagirl said...

Oh al7amdillah!! I'm so glad to hear she is cancer free! It so weird how everytime you go to the doctor in Kuwait you either have the flu or cancer... Who cares about that now. Allff il7amdillah 3ala salamat'ha inshallah il3amaliya sahla 3alaiha :)

plastic said...

**** um mostashfa elamiri o mostashfah mbarek la7thah who am i kidding **** um kel elmostashfyaat el7okomyah blq8 .
Im so happy for you wallah mo bas kalam o 7mdlah 3la salamat omech :* and 3la salfat ur stupid ass friends UPDATE your phonebook .

Flamingoliya said...

thank God she's ok! that's a relief! and we are all here with open wide shoulders to cry on. don't you ever feel alone.
hope everything goes well with the operation.

Lili3 said...

al7amdillah 3alla 2lslama, doom chthee 2l-dctrs, they always say you have something and after the tests they congratulate you for only having faqer dam :S

Yazeed said...

awalan el 7imdillah 3ala salamat ur mom, hope the surgery goes well too.

thaniyan just be happy that ur mom is all right , worry about the minor stuff later

eshda3wa said...

im glad ur mom is ok

oo inshallah shell do the surgury wetgoom belsalamah oo et9eer better than ever

Zabo0o6a said...

Waaaaaaai alf el7mdella , inshallah mafeeha ela el5aair ..
tgo0m belsalama inshallah :**

Jewaira said...

Thank God!
Hope all goes well now

Ms. Baker said...

I am so very glad Miya, so very relieved for you both, really and truly. Al7amdillah 3la salamet-ha. Kha6akum il-soo2 sweetie :**


I cannot STAND Amiri hospital. I hate it very much. They misdiagnosed my 3 year-old baby brother when he had Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma (a kind of lymph/blood cancer). They told us nothing was wrong with him after many diagnostic tests done over two weeks, and to bring him back a month later! My parents packed their bags and were on a plane to Great Ormond St. Hospital for Children in London, where they diagnosed him properly and had him on chemo in 3 days! They performed a simple feeding tube operation on my dad before he died and botched the operation. I wont even go into how we watched him suffer in his last hours dying from the horrible gaping hole they made in him and the massive infection. I have seen horrors done to my loved ones at the hands of Amiri's negligent and careless physicians. With all respect, it is not all the physicians there of course, but I have experienced nothing but gross negligence, sheer idiocy, incompetent, arrogant and juvenile physicians, unprofessional behavior, and horrifying nursing care given to my family. And I am not alone, I have many other friends and family members who have had similar stories at the hands of Amiri Hospital. Believe me, wasta of the highest level made no difference in our case.... Sorry for that, but I cannot tell you how upsetting it is to read of what you and your mom went through. I am very sorry you had to go through what you did.

Shoofay Miya. The truth is that not all the people in your life are your friends because they love you sincerely or care about you. A lot are your "friends" for silly reasons - some kind of ma9la7a, their twisted egos and psyches, to pass the time, curiosity, to toy with you for fun or whatever.... Some simply cannot deal or do not know how to handle what you are going through. And they disappear. There is so much to be said for knowing the truth about people and having the wool lifted from your eyes so you can see things with clarity. So much to be said for knowing the reality and the sheer truth of how things are with people you believed to be beloved and close to your heart. It hurts, but it is a relief to know how things really are with them, in spite of the hurt and sadness. This was that kind of an event in your life. A catalyst for the truth of things. Ta9feeya.

It means that you have sifted through the people around you and realized who is true and who is fluff. You drew new lines for yourself in the sand, you revised and formulated new and far stronger criteria for those eligible for the privilege of your true friendship, love and respect. You have evolved. You have realized that such a crisis brings out the best or the worst in people, as it brings out the best and worst in you. And to know that you carried your mom, carried this burden and carried it more or less alone and made it through to a better place is empowering. It is something, a major breakthrough in your development as a human being. You have now realized what you are capable of and what strength lies within you because of this. And no one can ever take that away from you and even more than that, you know what you can expect from yourself the next time one of life's crises hits you.

And I know for a fact that there have been a few others before you who have cried - wept in agony - alone on the beach just as you have. Know you are in good company.

Allah weyakum sweetie, and so happy to hear your good news again :** I think it will all be good and smooth sailing from here on in :)

Dana said...

Oh I am so happy for you and your mother!!!!!! :-)

Shoush said...

Il7imdila! :* Winshala itgoom min ilsurgery bil salama.

Zeecu said...

Honestly glad to hear that, Miya :D I'm happy for you and your mom, the bad episode is over for both of you.

Good stuff.

MiYaFuSHi said...

Teagirl: Allah Iysalmich 7bybty thank you.

Plastic: I just got that:P Thank you babe, that means a lot :*

Flam: Thank you 7bybty, now just how wide are we talking? :P

Li3li3: Allah iysalmich. Maybe but it's unacceptable.

Yazeed: Allah iysalmik, thank you. However, I don't think of my friends and family as minor stuff.

Eshda3wa: Thank you for your kind words :*

Zaboo6a: Allah iysalmich 7bybty ma gasartay :)

Jewaira: Thank you :)

Ms. Baker: Allah iysalmich o khi6ach il lash 7bybty. Thank you so much for your heartfelt comment. I am so sorry to hear about the troubles your family went through. Now as to the second part of your comment, what do I do when I don't like what I see? or what I have uncovered as they say?

Dana: Thank you dear :) so am I :P

Shoush: Allah iysalmich 7bybty :**

Zeecu: Thank you so very much. Yes it is :D

PaLoMiNo said...

il7mdela il7amdela il7amdela :****

6amneena 3layha ;)
ma tshof shar inshalla :***

Anonymous said...

Thank god ur mum is okay... i prayed alot for her. :)